It's not just about my recent diagnosis that's giving me this sudden rush of blood in the head and that constant palpitation, it is also the inability to have that constant communication with someone I value most. Though most of the times, I think it's the latter that matter most than the former. I don't know exactly what is going on although I feel like I have become a bother for sending out a text every other day. Yup, that is..."a text". I so want to take a hint but I am the type of person who wants an upfront conversation in order to find out the truth. This is my personality though I am scared of confrontation but it is so much liberating to know the truth first hand and without going through the maze of uncertainties. It has been quite a while since my last relationship and it could be a factor why I am acting like this yet at the back of my mind, I still think something has to be explained. Am I such an idiot to make a fuss over a week long communication gap? In an effort to free myself from this heart wrenching phase, I am faced with two dilemmas and that is firstly, I so would like to think that this is normal. Secondly, I so would want to know the truth and avoid the guessing game. Why does falling in love has to be a roller coaster ride? Nah, I am certain...it is the TRUTH that will set me free and so be it!!!
